Relationships....Man to have one or not to have one....

First off I just want to give a shout out to all of those out there that are in a relationship. Im in a relationship right now and its been about 3 years and 4 months. Let me tell you something this is like my first honest to goodness relationship where the person lives with me and all of that...Wow its really HARD work. Im gay if you can't tell or if you didnt know now you do...I aint got time for that hiding bullcrap....but my relationship is kinda unconventional...we do things kinda differently....he accepts my faults and addictions..lol and I accept his...because they are trully one in the same but anyways...we love each other very much and....we've done things to one another that makes us sometimes not trust each other..HOW do you stay in a relationship when there is always this underlying thing not being said? I figure just really be open and honest about whats going on in your life..Thats where I find sometimes we have a miss communication..we are both to blame in that...we wait until it builds and builds and then we up in the middle of the night before we supposed to be at work the next day me earlier than him. Some of the fights are so stupid to me too......once I say F it...lets not do this or get on here anymore...then all this other bulls...comes up...naw not while i this and that...and Im like damn serious that was kinda low.....But anyways...I know I need to take some responsibility in this and he has some too you know...hell this is what the hell he wanted.....LMAO!!! Sometimes I just feel that I want more......but...is there more out there....?

Wow ....I think its tome for me to go!!!

I've been kinda busy but not as busy as I should be. I have resorted back to my main source of income...Teaching. You know this has been a rather weird year for me. It's like I've been asking God for another start, something new because I was not happy. I think I've found what I love again. Music has been the one thing that has always made me happy. When I discovered Media Tech It was like a breath of fresh air...wow I can find out what its like behind the scenes in music...I love it! So far I've worked at some interesting LIVE SOUND Venues.....Alex DeAnda is like this ..ish.....well in my eyes anyway because he gives a guy like me a chance do work in the field...Thanks ALEX.....I am learning a lot!!! Im about to move on to my next adventure....be on the look out for Tony's Atlanta Adventures.....I don't know what music has in store for me there but ......It's calling me....ATL...Here I come.....2 and a half months to go.

Experience!!!!

SO I and 15 other just graduated from school. What is with all the jobs and the experience title? How does one get experience needed if the only jobs out there are looking for those of us whom have been doing this field for over a year. It seems to me that some of the jobs out there would want to get those of us fresh from school with new ideas and an even harder work ethic. We really want to work. I know Im 36 almost but still...I know this is the field for me. I love music. I love learning about the gear. I love doing load in/ load out. I get off on sitting behind the Midas Sienna 480 or the Yahama MC 32/12. I understand signal flow. I know how to follow orders and be humble. Really I just don't want anyone to get discouraged out there who is trying to live out their dream. I'm going to find a way into the entertainment industry if it kills me. I want to be around musicians and writers and producers............Is there anyone out there that feels me.....

I can't wait til this week is finished. I have 2 days to go...SXSW coming up I will either be working in my field of live sound or.....working the door.....Hoping to find me a job somewhere real soon that will allow me to make some dollars. Gotta lead today..Thanks Emily...still waiting on a phone call back... I think I will try again here in a few seconds.....Thatsa all for now.

Im here World!!!!

Its been a long time coming. Right now it's time for me to continue on my quest to become something more than what I was. Yeah I loved teaching elementary school but I don't have to passion one should have as a teacher to really teach kids. I love everything about music. Although Im not a musician, I can sing. Im thinking of taking up singing lessons and guitar lessons after this week is up. I will finally be done with audio engineering school. The teachers at Media Technical Institute here in Austin are really great. Im very appreciative of their time that they took out of there sometimes busy schedula to teach my classes. I can't believe it has already been a year. My how time flys. Time to chase my dreams.. Thank you for the inspiration.....Mac, JDub, Craig, Mordecai, Emily, Spencer, Cam, DJ, Charlie, Joes, and some of the most talented classmates in the world......