Relationships....Man to have one or not to have one....

First off I just want to give a shout out to all of those out there that are in a relationship. Im in a relationship right now and its been about 3 years and 4 months. Let me tell you something this is like my first honest to goodness relationship where the person lives with me and all of that...Wow its really HARD work. Im gay if you can't tell or if you didnt know now you do...I aint got time for that hiding bullcrap....but my relationship is kinda unconventional...we do things kinda differently....he accepts my faults and addictions..lol and I accept his...because they are trully one in the same but anyways...we love each other very much and....we've done things to one another that makes us sometimes not trust each other..HOW do you stay in a relationship when there is always this underlying thing not being said? I figure just really be open and honest about whats going on in your life..Thats where I find sometimes we have a miss communication..we are both to blame in that...we wait until it builds and builds and then we up in the middle of the night before we supposed to be at work the next day me earlier than him. Some of the fights are so stupid to me too......once I say F it...lets not do this or get on here anymore...then all this other bulls...comes up...naw not while i this and that...and Im like damn serious that was kinda low.....But anyways...I know I need to take some responsibility in this and he has some too you know...hell this is what the hell he wanted.....LMAO!!! Sometimes I just feel that I want more......but...is there more out there....?